guess what, its going to be a month soon, after my uncle's death ... time flies really way too fast ... its so easy to console others but not yourself ... on hari raya day, i wont say that its nt good or something .. i would juz say that its average but there is an emptyness feeling .. how to enjoy or have the mood too ? its super easy to show that u are happy and things have changed and u have move on and etc and etc .. but deep down inside ... ah ... this is where we .. nah, not we, but me... this is where i lose myself .. memories, everything ... it breaks down to juz one simple thing .. we cant forget despite wanting too ... when my grandfathers passed away, i was too young to understand .. after that, i was like happy go lucky ..i didnt care about anything .. everything was so easy ... nothing to worry, not much responsiblities to think .. totally nothing at all .. but now .. someone closes to me .. juz left .. no words, no last words .. now, i'm scared ... its juz that i have a fear in my heart ...i'm scared to lose someone close to me ... maybe its normal to feel this way .. haha... i dnt have the courage to take it ..but its the way of life ..i got to face it .. its a fact .. i've no choice but to pour my heart here ... i cant tell my parents about this... i cant even tell anyone about this ...i juz dont want to share it to anyone... i simply dnt want to add on troubles or sadness .... i got to keep myself cheerful .. seriously gt to keep myself damn occupied .. okok .. enough is enough .. its been damn long since i came online ..my mail box , wow .. super lots .. i juz clear it .. so ya .. hopefully everything will be normal .. it has too be .. haha ..
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