never say goodbye

2009-01-02T13:23:00.002+08:00

I'M SO BACK AFTER SO SO SO SO SO LONG !

HAHA :p

OH YA, NOT FORGETTING...

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-05-11T22:06:00.003+08:00

its mother's day today !

Happy mother's day to all the mothers !

finally I'm back after sometime !

haha..

anyway, i went to bring my darlings for their check up today in upper serangoon.

the clinic was very nice and the vets there are so sweet and kind !

i totally love the atmosphere over there !

and my darlings were enjoying their trip out but they were extremely quiet.

the check up went well and fine but we got to be back in June ...

and that is for their sterilizations...

man, i just hope there is no complications...

and this naughty darlings of mine, haha.. i cant say anything..

its too adorable..

anyway, I've have never been this busy in my life before, that i am now..

haha..

i just don't know what else to add on, but I'm ending here..

till then take care !

2008-03-14T22:12:00.003+08:00

To all guys reading here .. juz curious ..

do u guys prefer expressing ur love to the girls or u prefer the girls doing it ???

chances are that some of u might choose either ...

anyway, there is this guy that i met up on the net and we have chatted for almost a year plus ..

he is in the army now ..and there is something about this dude, that i actually could have dreamt about him ..

its nt that i think of him day and night... nah ! no way man !

it so happened that i dreamt of talking to him the night before and the next day, it came true..

whatever i dreamt of, chatting, the same topic we chatted on ..

he keeps telling me about his 2 past relations with girls and how they ended ..

man, all i can say that this guy is seriously a person that is smart, and he knows how to dote and pamper his girl ..

bt the funny part is, that his relations, and how he have to go through to get the girl, seems like a movie to me ..

haha..

n i heard of guys going down on their knees asking the girl to be they wife and etc ..

he actually went down on his knees and asked her to be his gf ..

haha.. oh god, i cnt stop laughing ..

ok ok .. maybe some guys do ..

ok .. i shld juz end the topic here ... i cn go on and on and on talking about him ..

its so hilarious ...

haha..

ok its seriously weird of me talking about this, bt i juz cnt help it ... haha ..

anyway, we made a huge blunder ..

its turns out that one of my kittens is a girl !!!!

haha, call me crazy or what..

bt i'm getting them clothes and stuff for them to wear !

man, they will look super adorable !!!!

haha

okie i shall stop here .. hehe

2008-03-01T19:37:00.002+08:00

its march already!

mum's birthday is around the corner and tmwr my darlings will turn 2 months old excactly ..

so fast ..

when they first came here, i can still remember that their walking wasn't stable ..

and they were so small and cute and dependent and definitely not naughty ..

hahahaha ..

but now, they turn the house upside down ..

chaos everywhere and they make the house is even more lively ...

rather then in the past, everyone juz go to work and sch and came back home, doing their daily activites including sleeping !

haha, bt now, everyone is eager to come home esp me !

whenever i came back, haha.. there is always something in my hand for my darlings ..

toys and treats ..

lovely !!

haha ..

anyway, my aunt is coming back.. dude, pls came back too also ok ! i dnt want to hear any excuses ! and dnt forget my items ! hahaha

till here then ..

byebye !

2008-02-14T13:24:00.002+08:00

FIRST OF ALL, HAPPY VALETINES DAY TO EVERYONE !!!!

SECONDLY, LET ME INTRODUCE THE LOVE OF MY LIFE !!

MY DARLINGS !!!!
Tabby & Chubby

ARENT THEY ADORABLE !!!!

sorry, i clndt find the time to take their pic when there r awake...
haha, dnt ask why.. very mischevious !

but i juz love them !!! the 2 new love of my life !

haha.. man, i juz dnt know what else to say ...

bt i muz really thank god for giving them to me !!!

thank u so much !!!!

and ya, yat, how do u think my darlings are ???
sorry ya, they r asleep ...
haha..

anyway, i had a marvellous week when this two beautiful angles came to my life and my cousin's wedding too !!!!

totally wipe out when everything was over ..

haha..

gt to go now.. haha .. no time for anything else already ..

byebye !

2008-01-26T19:08:00.000+08:00

January is coming to the end already !

And its so fast !!

Excactly 12 more days left before the wedding ..

preparations are almost done ! i think ...

GOD !! there will be lots and lots and LOTS OF FUN !!

HAHAHAHA

isnt it amazing to see wedding being solemnized ..

haha.. who knows, i might juz have a surprise in this wedding !

better still, who knows i might meet SOMEONE !

HAHAHA

god, lets juz pray for that hope to happen ok ?????

dnt let me down !

this is one of the most rare and wonderful occassion where i can go and SPENT SPENT SPENT !!

haha

I LOVE IT !!

oh ya !!!

can anyone tell me where can i get a wedding gift ??

or what can i give ??

i will think about that later ..

please please, let my hope come true ok !!

it will be a blast seeing ..............

til here then ..

2008-01-09T20:52:00.000+08:00

SALAM MA'AL HIJRAH 1429 !!!!!

TO ALL MUSLIMS !

today will be considered as our new year, so i'm wishing everyone !

haha.. may god bless us with wealth, health, and happiness !!!

and may this year, in the islamic calender, be blessed and no misfortune..

be blessed and lets pray to god, forgive us of our mistakes and guide us along the path shown!

ok... i know its almost 2 weeks since 2008, so here is wishing everyone a HAPPY NEW YEAR!

haha..

anyway, the year 2007 has gone, juz like that ..

haha..

anyway, everyone is busy already, either in exams or other work...

oh ya, by the way, i'm seriously looking forward for next feb !!

haha..

there is a wedding n its my sister's one !

haha, nt that i have a sister, bt she is one to me !

haha, god, i cnt believe it, she is getting married !!

and i want to video cam the whole function !!

but i wonder if i can.. haha..

anyway, till here then..

gt lots to prepare !!

haha..

take care ppl !

2007-12-29T01:28:00.000+08:00

my birthday is officially over already... :(

haha.. its okie .. i'm still in the fun of it ...

anyway i juz want to thank all those beautiful and handsome people and my lovely friends, for wishing me !!

LOVE U GUYS ! MUACKS !

haha...

2007 is coming to an end already.. its time to mark up the new year resolutions again ..

till then.. bye for now ... i need sleep !

haha...

thanks and byebye!

2007-12-02T16:35:00.000+08:00

YAY !! Finally december is here !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haha...

i love this month of this year !

christmas, sales, my birthday,hari raya haji, and coming to new year ! what else ??

haha..

its so so so nice !!!

boyy ! i think i've already made plans to decide when and how to spent my birthday ..

yeah ..

********breaking news***********

its nt something that everyone isnt unaware of ..

ystd, on the way to my uncle hse, we were playing with the cats while waiting for the cab

while playing we caught up with this volounteer that feeds the cats everyday in my area ..

the shocking news was, that she had this, so adorable kitten in her basket, and it was beaten up by some idiot til its legs was paralysed ..

and when she let the kitten out, oh shucks man, it breaks my heart to see how the kitten struggle to walk ...

it can hardly stand .. chances of recovery is there ..

but ...

god knows if the kitten can survive or not ...

its so cute ! the coat colour is so beautiful and its tiny adorable and mesmerizing eyes !

and pardon me, how can anyone do that ??

its so wicked..

haiz ...

its nt worth talking about it also ..

and also, there is this new resident in my block, a cat and its tail has the colours of a racoon and we named it that ..

haha, and there is something about this racoon cat, which i dnt know of .. but its so hard to resists him ..

he is one handsome cat.. maybe i shld say kitten cuz its nt a fully grown adult .. hahaha ..

ok.. til here then .. :)

2007-11-11T13:32:00.000+08:00

finally..

anyway its amazing looking at the fact that u want to talk to someone but u cant find the time ..

as in even if u are free, the other person is nt free ...

the time juz doesnt want to meet ..

haha ..

its strange though, but when someone unknown stretch his hand out to u and comforts u ..

ah.. feeling so home and warmth ...

haha .. ok ok ..

so fast the year is going to end ..

finally back to blogging ..

haha .. no time to change stuff so juz stick to the old things ..

next week schedule is pack ..

what to do ..

there's weddings to attend, functions to go, work to do and lots ..

finally back to life, once again ..

anyway, i'm super happy for attending something special ..

another thing is, haha .. nvm.. forget it...

wnt be able to put in words ..

i'm using alot of finally ... haha..

okie.. thats all.. byebye!

2007-10-19T13:50:00.000+08:00

guess what, its going to be a month soon, after my uncle's death ...

time flies really way too fast ...

its so easy to console others but not yourself ...

on hari raya day, i wont say that its nt good or something ..

i would juz say that its average but there is an emptyness feeling ..

how to enjoy or have the mood too ?

its super easy to show that u are happy and things have changed and u have move on and etc and etc ..

but deep down inside ... ah ... this is where we .. nah, not we, but me... this is where i lose myself ..

memories, everything ... it breaks down to juz one simple thing .. we cant forget despite wanting too ...

when my grandfathers passed away, i was too young to understand ..

after that, i was like happy go lucky ..

i didnt care about anything ..

everything was so easy ... nothing to worry, not much responsiblities to think ..

totally nothing at all ..

but now ..

someone closes to me .. juz left ..

no words, no last words ..

now, i'm scared ...

its juz that i have a fear in my heart ...

i'm scared to lose someone close to me ...

maybe its normal to feel this way ..

haha... i dnt have the courage to take it ..

but its the way of life ..

i got to face it .. its a fact ..

i've no choice but to pour my heart here ...

i cant tell my parents about this...

i cant even tell anyone about this ...

i juz dont want to share it to anyone...

i simply dnt want to add on troubles or sadness ....

i got to keep myself cheerful ..

seriously gt to keep myself damn occupied ..

okok .. enough is enough ..

its been damn long since i came online ..

my mail box , wow .. super lots ..

i juz clear it .. so ya .. hopefully everything will be normal ..

it has too be .. haha ..

2007-09-24T21:27:00.000+08:00

its so hard to accept the fact that someone u really love, has gone ...

i still cnt accept it even though i was at the funeral ..

its damn hard ..

i'm hurt at the fact, that i didnt get to see him, my favourite n the one whom i can turn too, my uncle ..

i didnt get to see him before he died ...

the last time i saw was earlier this year, around feb or march ..

and the last one time was today, at his funeral ..

its super heart breaking ..

the thought is still there, the memory is still there ..

i will miss him alot ! i cnt write anymore ...

i wnt be much online this much till i'm settle in ..

2007-09-16T16:50:00.000+08:00

its the fourth day of fasting & fifth day of terawih..

so fast already ...

it juz seems like yesterday was the first day ..

i'm super out of ideas or things to write about ..

so i just end it of here ....

2007-09-07T15:09:00.000+08:00

Next thurday, Fasting starts already !!!!

YAY !! I TOTALLY CNT WAIT FOR THAT !

HAHAHA

so preparations have started ..

what sorts of preparations ??

hmm... i dnt know ...

i'm in charge of my own room ...

haha...

its kinda wrong to think of decorating .. haha ..

bt what to do ..

i'm not into it entirely .. hehe ..

ok ok ..

anyway, ystd i went to watch the ratatouille ..

so sweet and so cute !!

the rat is super adorable ..

and i love the background when the rat go up the roof and the whole of paris ..

wow .. its so extremly nice ..

haha .. anyway the movie is worth watching ..

and i experience something which i hate to see in the cinema ..

guy and gurl .. sitting beside me .. and what else ??? imagine fm here ...

YUCK !!

first time, having seen it ... argh ... how outraging and disgusting ..

next movie in line is maybe 1303, dead slience and nt sure yet ...

bt no cinema going already :(

so dvds here i come ... hahaha ... :P

hmm.. what else to say ??

i dnt know ...

aiya.. till here then ! byebye!!

2007-09-02T14:55:00.000+08:00

its raining now ...

so heavy ...

super nice mood to sleep ...

haha...

anyway, the teacher's day at btss was great and the concert, was mind blowing ..

better then last year .. that's for sure ...

hehe ..

then met up with friends and teachers ..

all those memories came back .. good n bad ...

anyway, haha a lot of changes too ..

hahaha ...

then went to eat lunch ..

then to vivo ...

and i bought a soft toy, a kitten !

super cute and adorable !

haha ...

and more and more ..

haha.. lazy to type ...

tata .. will update again .. next time .. :P

2007-08-12T16:18:00.000+08:00

a series of unwanted events ...........................................

its like a spell cast, more like a 'sick spell' .......................................

at night, my toe started swelling for no reasons ...

the pain was bearable bt couldnt take it in the late morning ...

it was so red that i couldnt sleep and started crying .......................

i spent the whole night crying in pain ...

didnt woke my mum up ... i could have, bt i chose not to ...

morning ready! i couldnt walk ...

told mum, she cant say what's wrong either ...

so had to get ready to see doc ...

juz as i thought that i had recovered from flu, i started sneezing....

and back with flu again ....

another reason to see the doc ...

next, when i was combing my hair, i realise that there is something wrong with my eyes, the left eye ...

went closer to the mirror ...

and guess what, there is a kind of seed growing inside ....

used to have that when i was young in p1 and now its back again .......

third reason to see the doc ...

i dont know what to say either ....

my toe hurts, having flu AGAIN, and NOW, my left eye hurts !

went 2 see doc...

eye, most probably 2 weeks to heal ...

toe, if pain persists, take x-ray ...

flu, no idea, cuz its not ordinary flu ... always have headache ....

no cold drinks for sometime ........

i totally dont know ...

man, yesterday was super hyper...

having fun ...

then today like this ...

haiz ...

bt look on the bright side, i get to use sun glasses til my eyes recover, no need to do house work ...

nt good either ...

bye !

2007-08-11T17:33:00.000+08:00

ah ...........................................................................................

i feel like going on a holiday ....

far far far far and FAR away ...............................

when there is me and my cat and the beautiful backdrop of nature .......

with no probs, no tension ... only fun and pleasure ...

so nice ................

ok ok ...

back to reality ...

i dont have that much of $$$$ to enjoy ....

how sad !

hmm ...

anyway.. what shall i talk ...

ya.. everyone here is in national day mood ... for last week ....

i didnt go to the parade ...

wanted to go esplanade ... bt then went to courts ...

my tv spoilt ...

no tv, no life ...

haha..

so bought a new tv ...

then went to check out the furniture and etc ...

man, i fall in love with the sofa set !

its so unique and trendy !

and of course, i dont have to say...

the colour is obviously green ... my fav ...

and then the kitchen ...

the orange colour and black granite top ...

WOW !

mind blowing !

and there was more ...

the story of window shopping never ends ......

ya .. anyways, i'm nt changing hp ...

haha...

sticking to the old one ...

if i get to choose between getting a new phone and a cat ...

i rather take the choice of having a cat ...

with that amount of money i'm using to buy a phone, i can get 2 kittens !

who would ever miss that chance ?????

not me for sure !!

hahaha ...

okie ... till here then ...

gt to get some work done ...

tata !!

man, i miss someone .. hahaha ....

wnt tell ... so dnt ask ...

tata !!!

2007-08-05T15:55:00.000+08:00

so long nvr come online nor update ..

haiz my pc got prob and i gt no mood either ..

wont be online that much till i repair my pc ..

so left to use the laptop ..

not much to do this days ..

in a blink of an eye, its august already ..

it wont be long enough then fasting month ..

i dont know what else to say .. anyway till here ..

2007-07-24T13:58:00.001+08:00

the final chapter in wan's blog really pissed me off ...

it sucks !

what kind of a guy he is ?

so stupid !

how would he know how long their relationship would last if they haven't started at all ?

ridiculous !

i was like expecting a happy ending and happily married after all ...

but too bad.. its rare to see it a reality ...

only in fairytale that it exsits ..

whatever ..

its the guy's lost..

anyway, its pretty cool these days...

i don't mind a Sunny day.. at least one whole day ...

its too cool ...

i just watched the news...

Britain's flood was the worst in history ..

there is no water for them to drink ..

thats's worst ..

my guess is, that people around the world better start acknowledging the global warming crisis or else its too late to regret ..

2007-07-22T18:24:00.000+08:00

its so interesting in life that there are so many things to talk and yet nothing to write about ..

haha..

the wait for harry potter final's book is out ..

buy or dont buy ?

haha..

i loved to purchase it but got to wait ..

whatever ..

anyway.. i dnt know what the hell to bla bla about ..

keep that aside, lately wan's blog is rather interesting and touching ..

haha.. poor thing the girl doesnt remember her beau..

but anyways.. we can rather conclude the ending ...

okie.. i'm over and out..

gt no idea what to blog about ..

2007-07-15T18:48:00.001+08:00

I SO LOVE THIS SKIN!!!!

IT HAS ALMOST EVERYTHING THAT I LIKE !

see, there is a flower..

man, i love flowers ..

and freedom too..

the best is that its full of colours esp GREEN !!!

they have green !! my favourite !!

haha...

too bad... i shall stick to this.. untill something else came ..

haha..

sorry coffin.. no purple :P ..

its too purplish.. if gt other colour comnbination, no prob.. but purple and white..

haha.. its okie..

but i muz admit the skin was design nicely ..

haha.. cheers !! ;)

2007-07-13T14:27:00.000+08:00

welcome to the "purplish" world..

haha.. it way too purple...

but who cares .. the skins is nice ..

so juz take it ..

hehe ..

mozzies mozzies and mozzies !!

they are back again ..

this time is more ...

man.. its hard to go to the park nowdays ..

so sad .. :(

haiz..

its superb boring ..

i dnt know what to do ..

anyway my bro is going to the national day preview tmwr ..

i'm all alone tmwr afternoon onwards ..

haha..

all are out except for me ..

i will make some other plans ..

but gt to help rabbit with her work ..

aiya .. nth to say ready ..

byebye ! :)

2007-07-07T18:10:00.000+08:00

it's time to update ..

super tired yesterday after spending the whole day shopping ..

my legs really hurt ..

its july already ..

so fast time flies ..

i totally can't wait for harry potter to come in the cinemas ..

but i'm more eager to read the final book !

i juz hope the ending wouldnt be so tragic nor touching either ..

i hope it would be something that leaves a print..

yeah it would be nice that way ..

plans for this month ..

hmm..

nt yet decided ..

anyway it's juz 2 months left before fasting starts ..

getting ready for that .. other then that, let see what is in store ..

lets enjoy the live earth concert tonight ..

tune in to save the earth ..

ok.. till here then.. tc !

2007-06-22T18:44:00.000+08:00

for the past one week ..

fantastic man..

enjoying the last days of holidays ..

partying, going out, dining out and lots more ..

and to add into the fun, ystd was my bro's birthday ..

a blast at swenses ...

fish n chips.. yum yum !

ice cream ! my favourite ..

and what's more, i got the pirates of the carribbean treasure..

haha.. and also i bought Happy Feet plates set ..

damn cute !

haha ..

i place it on display .. nt going to use it ...

hehe ...

yesh.. i was having lots of fun .. til i didnt even bother to blog ..

hehe ..

holidays are nice including the sales..

mind blowing to spent !

there is like thousands and one things to talk about ..

but dnt know where to start ..

so who cares ..

hehe..

off i go .. byez !

2007-06-14T15:42:00.000+08:00

i'm glad that i back on my feet again and not lying flat on the bed ..

anyway, i went to the playground ystd ..

super fun and it does look a bit ... erm .. who cares ..

haha..

my bro was playing with his buddies .. soccer..

and i was at the playground, playing with children that are way younger then me..

all were toddlers and some i would say middle age group too ..

anyway, there is this cute toddler ..

so sweet and sugary nice ...

haha..

man, she is so adorable ..

i didnt know how time flies while playing with her ...

haha..

i played the monkey bar after so long ..

but too bad, there was no swing ..

haha ..

its nice to be out and playing again ..

haha..

now i rather not say that life sucks or its boring or its tiring or whatever ..

i would rather enjoy it .. its too beautiful and bright to let it go juz like that ..

haha .. i'm inspired again ..

2007-06-12T18:55:00.000+08:00

I'M BACK !!!

HAHA !!

FROM WHATEVER HAS HAPPEN or have not ..

HEHE ..

ITS NICE TO BE BACK ..

I MISS MY COMPUTER SO MUCH !!

no more words to crap about.. hehe...

byebye...

2007-06-03T19:54:00.000+08:00

man ..

LIFE SUCKS !!

back to my favourite phrase ..

what to do ?

its so easy to make others understand but hard to understand on ur own ..

i'm out ..

nth to say ..

2007-05-30T15:30:00.000+08:00

I FORGOT THAT YESTERDAY WAS MY PARENTS WEDDING ANNIVERSARY !!

haha.. bt no one can be a bigger fool then me ..

haha.. my dad, he is even superb ..

he forgot his own anniversary..

and he had to pay a price for it ..

haha..

super sweet ...

as for me.. its okie..

hehe..

oh yeah ..

i am super happy today cuz I COOK LUNCH WITHOUT BURNING IT OR RUINING IT...

haha..

its too cool ..

haha..

first time !!

i muz reward myself ..

yeah .. bt on a second thought, no thanks ..

i need to save money !

badly !

my bro's birthday coming up..

and i'm nt good in saving as spending..

haha..

maybe this holidays, go and work ..

then enjoy ..

yeah ...

haiz ...

ystd talk to huda..

haha ..

i juz can't imagine ..

but JUZ IMAGINE ..

guys and relations ...

haha ..

ok ok

i think i better blog out ..

cuz i have a feeling that i'm nt going to end ..

haha..

but juz can't help it ..

I LOVE WRITING ..

hehe..

2007-05-26T18:52:00.000+08:00

DO vampires and dracula really exists ??

i dnt know...

i actually went to research about it but it remains a myth ..

haiz ..

if i could ever go on a world tour ..

hmm ..

firstly i would travel to the deserts ..

then to africa ..

then to antartica ..

then to europe ..

then to paris ..

then to london ..

then to new zealand ..

then to america, esp DISNEYLAND

then to france

then to australia .. my favourite ..

and so on and on and on ..

lastly i would hit the oceans ...

haha..

yeah ..

get to see the amazing life under the sea ..

ah ..........

how nice it is ..

it will be even nice if it was free ..

haha..

but its impossible ...

okie ...

my days are getting better and not so better ...

cnt the mosquitoes find any other victim to bite ..

i'm sick of being their target ...

its not fair ..

oh yeah !!

pirates of the caribbean is out !!!!

first movie down to watch ...

the rest is on waiting list ...

haha ..

this june , i hope it would be a blast ..

haha ..

okie ..

actually nth much of a happening ..

juz went to research on vampires ...

pretty scary ..

but i'm goin back to it ..

haha.. so long for now ..

oh yeah.. the phone is finally out of service..

no more morning calls .. and annoying noise to hear in the morning ..

haha ..

sweet !!!

ok ok ...

back to vampires... haha ..

2007-05-25T12:43:00.000+08:00

juz as i thought that i can escape it ..

it doesnt seems to go away from me ..

man..

it sucks ..

anyway its juz a stupid injection ..

yeah .. think of it stupid ..

oh boy!

save me ..

forget it ..

one way or the other, i have to take it..

so juz shut up and take it..

no big deal ..

yeah ..

ok ok ..

i gt nth much to say ..

miss everything for almost a week ..

bored to death already ..

oh boy, prison breaks returns on 7 june ..

not fair..

thats like two weeks to wait man ..

i dnt know what to crap now already ..

going back to sleep .. again ..

shucks ....

2007-05-21T15:26:00.000+08:00

I'M SICK !!!!!!

haiz.. no fair man !

totally nt fair !!!! :(

haiz..

i'm too tired to get out ...

its so inconvinent to sleep in the afternoon...

sun SO BRIGHT !

birds chirping !

children playing !!

renovations !!!

NOISY !!!!

i'm out officially ..

2007-05-17T16:59:00.000+08:00

today, my grandfather's death anniversary..

granny held prayers for him at uncle house ..

sadly to say, i couldnt go ..

though i dnt remember much, but i must say, when my grandfather was around, life was superb!!

i juz miss him lots ..

nice weather today..

nice to sleep but cant ..

yeah ..

today gt prison break ..

i dnt know what to do ..

havent yt start my work ..

tired man ...

its time to visit the cinema again ..

haha...

on first week of holidays, bring my bro , if nt he complain, i dnt spent time with him..

haha..

okie ..

too bored ready..

better log out..

2007-05-16T19:35:00.000+08:00

nth much of a happenings ...

went KK yesterday ..

was faster then the last visit ..

went to eat ..

met granny ..

went shopping ..

ok .. i stop ..

no mood to write ready..

tired ..

2007-05-14T16:57:00.000+08:00

TEST !!

took this fm the reader's digest book, my mum bought ..

kinda cool knowing how is ur memory like ..

try it ..

What's your memory like - good or bad ?

1. i dont concentrate for very long on what i am reading.
2. i dont easily remember the names of people i've been introduced to.
3. i find it difficult to put a name to a face i know well.
4. i dont recall the names of famous people very easily.
5. i am late for appoinments.
6. i have to resort to my diary to remember my appoinments.
7. i need a list when i go shopping.
8. i forget what i have to do while going fm one room to another.
9. i find it difficult to remember telephones numbers i use regularly.
10. i forget's the day's date.
11. i find it difficult to concentrate on a task for long.
12. i have problems trying to remember where i've kept my keys or glasses.
13. i need time to adjust to any changes.
14. i forget the birthdays of my nearest and dearest.
15. i am easily distracted by minor issues.
16. in conversation, i struggle to find the right word.
17. i have problems finding my way around my neighbourhood.
18. i tend to think that my memory mislead me.
19. i dont find it easy to discuss a film i saw the previous day.
20. i redo things i've already done.
21. i forget incidents that i dont often talk about.
22. i remember useless information.
23. i struggles to remember the code of my bank card.
24. i have difficulty remembering anything that is of no immediate interest to me.
25. i struggle to remember the price of the things i buy.
26. i quickly forget the titles of the books i have just read.
27. i can remember no numbers whatsoever.
28. i take much longer than i did before to learn anything by heart.
29. i immediately forget what i have just watched on tv.
30. i find it difficult to do crossword puzzles.

add the number of points using this scale :
never - 0 pts
sometimes - 1 pts
often - 2 pts

test results:
0-15 pts
Ur powers of concentration are good unless you have somewhat underestimated your difficulties.
Dont slacken tough.
Maintaining your physical and mental fitness is the best way to ensure that your memory keeps working well.

16 - 35 pts
U hv minor memory problems that shld nt worry u unduly.
U are probably one of those ppl who has difficulty concentrating.
To prevent these minor impediments from becoming a handicap, slow down.
Take all the time you need for each task, and force yourself to do it while focusing on the task at hand without thinking about what it is to come.
At the same time, find a form of relaxation that suits you, because u cannot sustain your concentration when under stress.

35 ++ pts
Umay have a tendency to judge yourself too severely, or to be unduly pessimistic. Nevertheless, why nt take the precaution of goin to see a memory consultant for a more accurate assessment of your ability?
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tmwr goin kk for bro check up.. cool .. nt goin to sch .. haha

2007-05-13T11:20:00.000+08:00

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY

took this fm hp blog !

supercute rite !!

haha.. love it !

plans for today.. goin out, giving mum a treat..

haha.. okie .. byebye !

2007-05-11T12:48:00.000+08:00

MY POCKETS IS GOING TO BURN WITH THE NUMBER OF MOVIES COMING OUT !!!!!

oh god !!!!

i want to watch the simpsons, harry potter, pirates of the caribbean, sherk 3, fantastic four, and surf's up !!!

6 movies to catch ! wonder if i have the time ??

haiz.. not fair man .. its too much to digest ...

shucks...

whatever ..

haha..

mother's day, on sunday ..

nice nice ..

gt the gifts prepared ..

thought of whipping up something for mum when she comes back from work, but then again, i'm not good at cooking so leave it to my bro ..

haha.. my bro cooking ?? how sweet !!

the last time i remember making a dish, it turn out very spicy, oily and it was overcooked ..

haha..

too cool man !!

ok ok ..

so far this week, a bit ok... i dnt know ..

haha ..

i want to watch the horror movie !! jgn pandang belakang !

heard its nice and scary too ..

gt to wait for aunt to get the cd from malaysia ..

yeah ..

ok ok ..

gt to go..

haha..

cya !

2007-05-04T20:41:00.000+08:00

i suddenly have the urge to go to vivo city again ..

haha ..

but no one to go with ..

busy ...

n some say too $$$ ..

haha.. its okie ..

i go for fun only ..

haha ..

anyway, today friday .. finally ...

end of the week ..

went out wif rabbit, then met huda on the way ..

it was fun talking to rabbit ..

talking about sch, life and etc ..

super cool ..

haha.. its funny, bt rabbit said tat jc cannot have lame jokes ..

haha..

anyway.. life is either great or TOO great ..

looks like, my uk trip is off for now ..

its okie .. haha.. am still young, can do other stuff first ..

most likely, am goin to watch spiderman 3 again ..

its nice.. a must watch movie.. for me .. haha ..

2007-05-02T22:26:00.000+08:00

EGO CAN KILL A PERSON ..

MONEY CAN KILL ONE'S IDENTITY ..

BUT THE PAIN CAUSE, IS WORST THEN A STORM ..

i hate u lots ..

i forgive and forget .. but u remind me every moment ..

now i dont have the strength to forget let alone forgive ..

how much can i take ..

i gt nothing but hatred for all of u ..

ur actions make me hate u but i juz cant bring myself to hate u guys, not only from mind, but heart also ...

2007-04-29T11:37:00.000+08:00

Spidey is BACK !

YAHOO !!

haha.. cant wait to watch it ..

watch the trailer.. was cool man ..

now juz must wait for may 1 to come ..

yeah ...

ystd, was watching the movie, the exorcism of emily rose ..

pretty cool and scary man ..

esp the part when the exorcism took place ...

6 demons possessed in her..

the screams was .... errrrrr .. and very eerie ...

then after that, to think i could be so crazy enough, i went to go and research about it ..

since it was based on a true story ..

was researching about it ..

but the photos are really scary man ..

those marks on her faces ..

several teeths brokens ..

till today, no one knows what really happen, as in how the demons got into her ..

enough of emily for today ..

breaking news on a new discovery .. the super earth ...

haha.. heard it has 50% more gravity then earth ..

i wonder how it looks like ...

haha..

oh yeah.. mother's day is coming ..

i wonder what to get ..

stupid man.. the florist better have red roses ..

the last time i went to buy, it was out of stock ..

it better be in stock now..

enough for now.. going to catch prison break ..

2007-04-28T22:34:00.000+08:00

frankly speaking, whenever i came here to blog..

i'm like i dont know what to say ..

so much is going on but i dont know where and what to say ..

some things are better kept rather then having it open to others ..

i dont know ..

how many faces can a person ever have ?

why people hurt those whom they love most ?

why isnt anyone happy with what they have ?

its time to change ..

haha..

i cant ..

anyway..

things that have happened in this one week, really taught me some lessons ..

who to ask help ...

who to ask for support ..

who to ask for love ..

and the most important, who to trust ..

at 16 , others might be enjoying their life ..

who could have thought that some had to see such life at this tender age ..

who could have thought that life has started to play its game ..

who could ever think ...

another thing, is money everything than happiness ?

i'm like so nuts to think all this ..

actually, i am ..

god knows what is going to happen ..

i'm tired ..

2007-04-21T15:21:00.000+08:00

totally exhausted ..

haha ..

yesterday morning, was greeted by the pains of a wild bird trap in btw the tree branches ..

and the poor bird was surrounded by crows attacking it ..

the bird was so helpless.. and its cries.. dnt mention it, but its so irritating that i cant sleep ..

thank to it, i woke up bright and early..

but i didnt miss the actions...

haha, spca came to rescue it..

bt it was so hard for them to climb the tree ..

bout 11 plus then a construction worker came to help them ..

he climb up the tree..

very danger man, anytime, the branch can break.. and.. byebye ...

but nvr..

haha..

he climb almost like tarzan.. its almost only...

but tarzan more better .. hehe .. no offence ya ..

finally the bird was rescued.. so cute the bird ..

but sad to say, its leg was injured ..

but damn cute ..

i love the way when the bird fight back whenever the net goes near it ..

haha ..

enough of the action ..

for today ...

went speech day..

haha.. yiying had to wait for me..

dont even know why, i always wake up early, but when it comes to meet friends, i end up going late despite waking up early ..

hardly bother to watch the concert .. hehe.. forgive me ..

but overall, can say its nice ..

met old buddies .. and teachers too ..

nice talking ..

thank god, can collect the cert, cuz if dnt collect today, nt even sure when will i make the time for it ..

anyway .. nt sure if going back to bts again ..

time will tell that ..

finally .. some peace ..

the weekdays is sure a headache ..

thanks to the renovation ..

but when mine starts, i think i sleep over at granny's house..

got peace ..

enough for today ..

byebye.............

2007-04-13T08:54:00.000+08:00

its almost 9 in the morning ..

i cant go back to sleep again ..

tiring man, after coming back from jog ..

it kinda dark here and its raining too ..

nice weather to sleep but cant ..

nothing to watch on tv at this hour ..

later in the afternoon, going to meet rabbit ..

haha.. anyway, today is friday the 13th ..

haha ..

nice nice ..

anyway, how nice would it be if singapore allows us to keep chimpanzee as a pet ..

wow ..

it will be damn fun ..

at least there will be a replica of someone who is as stubborn as u, funny, full of tricks, irritating and VERY naughty ..

haha ..

too cute ..

was watching a documentary on chimps and it reminded me of the movie, MVP ..

nice nice .. i just love monkeys esp those small adorable ones, in dr.dolittle ..

haha.. ok enough of monkeys for now ..

juz curious ..

why is it that when they say, when a guy cries, he is not consider to be a man, as in a brave kind ?

or something like that ..

or is it because they are trying to hide their emotions ?

or they feared being called a weak person ?

erm.. its nothing special, was reading this book on anger and emotions ..

juz curious .. that's all ..

psyching ppl really rocks.. esp reverse psychology..

haha... i love the effect ..

too nice ..

yeah .. ok i no more topic to talk ..

better go and rest my leg before it hurts ..

bye bye !!

2007-04-10T12:21:00.000+08:00

is it ok to buy a fish now when there is mosquitoes breeding ? or the dust from the renovation ?

i dont know..

its so boring so i thought of getting a fish ..

haha..

but then again, i dont want it to suffer the same fate as my earlier fish had ...

argh .. dont know man ...

but anyway, i have finally make mum agree to me in letting me keep a kitten ..

but she says end of the year .. i hope its true ..

haha.. but by then ar, it will be hard ...

whatever ..

no comments ..

haha ..

ITS WAY TOO TOO TOO TOO BORING !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm sick of going out and staying at home ..

i want to do smething, worth the time ..

not just idling around and hanging out ..

its like no life man...

my cousin is mugging over there for his os and here we are, enjoying life ..

haha...

nt much to crap ready ... hehe ..

2007-04-09T15:53:00.000+08:00

haha.. back again ..

this time nothing much to blog ..

really dnt know what to crap on ..

haha ..

ITS BORING FOR SURE ...

haha ..

last time, i use to eat lots of junk food and ended up suffering in the end by having ulcer in the mouth or better still gastric ...

but now, when i hardly eat them, i do get gastrics bt nt so often bt the worst is what i'm having or suffering now .. ulcer ..

its pain and i so hate the burning sensation of it ..

doc gave cream..

hate and love the cream ..

its so sticky that it can seal the mouth .. which is nice, dnt have to talk or worry about eating, can delay meals...

haha...

but the worst part it to get it off ...

how much water has been wasted ..

bt i must say that the cream does taste nice even though u are not allowed to swallow it ..

haha ..

ok ok ..

plans for this week , not very sure ..

gtg .. cya ppl ..

2007-04-06T15:22:00.000+08:00

"Dont marry the one whom u love but marry the one that loves u "

haiz.. being hearing this statement almost everyday ..

getting sick of it ...

every movie or drama i watch.. always have this saying..

pls man.. dnt the script writers have any other phrase to use ..

dnt bother to talk about the script writers.. at home already gt one saying it..

haiz..

plain sick of it ready ..

its nt as if i dnt care, bt i dnt like to hear ..

whatever ..

i'm getting bored ..

btw..

what is happening around the world ???

ystd 4 cases of missing people in the waters ..

3 found, the latest case still unknown ..

i wonder if the 2 teenagers will be found or not..

haiz..

and then, there is the climate changes happening around the globe ...

coral reefs are almost gone..

how sad man..

haiz..

the world is changing ...

i wonder what will the world be like if there is no nature or natural wonders left ??

yuck !

cant imagine that ..

forget about the world for now..

haha ..

i'm driving my mum mad ...

hehe..

i fall in love reading books on criminal minds, law and yesh on anger ...

haha.. the book on anger is so nice and useful .. i tried it on my bro.. it work ..

haha..

and the one on criminal mind is even superb..

walk into their world of how and why they commit such acts ..

ok ok ..

juz had a chat wif sara ..

the 2 teenagers that drown near pasir ris beach, happens to be his mother's friend son ..

its so unpredictable ..

u may never know who might just leave u ...

its scary to think about it..

2007-04-04T12:59:00.000+08:00

two nights ago .. was up alone in the middle of the night, doing some work on the computer ...

take it as my imagination or whatever ..

bt as soon as i finish my work, i went to the kitchen to drink water ..

the house was dark, no lights on ...

so i went and on the kitchen light, as soon as the light was on, i turn around ..

and i saw this white figure near the door ..

ok..

it could be that i was alone and my imagination could have gone wild ..

or maybe i was sleepy that i could have saw someone standing there ..

bt its definitely not a coincidence or could it be ?

mum ystd came back home from work ..

and she told me that the patient that she attended to, passed away ..

he came to the clinic with chest pain ..

he was only 46 ...

how and why he die.. its not known yet ..

but he came on sunday and i saw that white figure on monday night ,close to midnight..

could it really be a coincidence ?

or

was it really a ghost i saw ?

or

maybe my mind is playing a trick on me..

cuz sometimes, what we see isnt always true ..

yeah .. maybe that's true ..

anyway i didnt see anything again, so ya, rule out that decision ..

2007-04-02T23:11:00.000+08:00

yesterday, april fool day ...

haha... had fun playing and cracking some jokes and pranks too ..

i didnt know that i would get fooled ...

haha, i enjoyed fooling ppl bt nvr knew that i would be the biggest fool in the end ..

haha...

sweet man ..

..................................................

life is so boring ..

not to say boring, i just dont know man ..

i'm sick of everything already ..

i'm not even sure if i ever made the right choice ..

forget now, bt i dont even know whether the decisions made in the past are affecting me now or not ...

sometimes i dont even know what i am thinking ..

i'm just sick and tired ...

every thing changes ...

wat dreams i had ..

but now they seem far, very far ...

to achieve them, i dnt know which path i have to take now ..

dont wanna talk about that either ..

i feel like i'm asking for too much and i feel like i am a burdern to those whom i know ..

bt i'm not going to give up ..

its unlike me to give up ..

i will find ways to fight back bt for now..

i follow my dreams and my heart ..

feel at peace at least ...

haha ..

ok ok .. no more emo talks ..

yeah .. must be happy .. happy .. happy ..

hmm...

gt no plans yet for tmwr ...

i so wanna buy a handy cam ..

and i so wanna venture out ..

away from the town and city areas ..

how i wish that can happen ?

how nice would that be ..

haha.. dreaming again ..

ok.. enough i guess..

2007-03-31T17:14:00.000+08:00

what can i say ...

today nothing much to talk about ..

ystd had lots of fun, it was mum birthday ...

and if there is a birthday, there must be celebrations okie ..

tis is esp for sara and yiying ...

i can't believe these guys man ...

whatever ... haha...

ystd had a celebrations and then went to swenses to makan ..

wow, i just love the ice creams there ...

yum yum !

and after that, had fun which i rather not elaborate ...

haha...

bt anyway, before that, i went to made a reservations at the florist ..

nice flowers man.. blue and white and red roses ...

i wanted red roses bt they dnt have ... so sad ...

bought it for mum ..

it was great ystd bt it would be best if i hadnt went to bedok ...

haiz ... i mean its long since i went to bedok and to think, ystd by going there to meet a friend, i would encounter a freak ...

if i ever met that freak, i'm not so sure what i will do ...

bt lucky man, i reach home safely ...

bt i cnt help thinking that, that freak took my pic ...

haiz.. what the hell man, how can u ever take a pic without asking permission man ...

so freaking mad ...

anyway.. that was all ... am nvr ever going there again .. no way man ...

if i want also, i rather go with my bro or maybe with a couple or group of friends ..

its even better ...

its boring man ...

haha, i had a dream ystd night ..

very cool and worth to think about ...

haha...

bt i just so love the scenery in my dream ...

too beautiful to be true ...

anyway, i so wanna buy the hdb flat at punggol ...

its so nice !!!

i want to go and see the houses...

the environment is so nice ...

wow.. its like living in nature ...

bt not totally true ...

mum said that the five room flat might be even smaller then the one we are staying in ...

haiz ... no fair man ..

i suddenly have the desire to go to london and ya australia too ...

haiz... i so wish i had a cousin or a relative or a friend or even better, a nice cool looking dude to bring me to those places ...

its better to have a person's company then going alone ... haha ...

2007-03-28T14:26:00.000+08:00

finally man.. searching for a skin can be really tiring..

anyway, i am tired of searching so i ended up with this skin..

wow.. been long i never update ..

haha..

anyway, i juz hope that i made the right decision ..

urgh, thats the thing, whenever i want to update, i kinda forget what i want to blog..

haiz..

too much things on my mind..

bt i just hope that i made the right decision in my life..

for the first time ever, i made a decision but i just hope that they will understand and support me..

u just live once in this life, only once, so make the full use of it everyday..

finally i'm walking on my own steps which leads to those paths that i always wanted to go..

anyway, i'm kinda feeling very guilty..

i sort of told my mum a lie..

i told her that i'm going out to watch a movie but in fact, i went out to buy for her gifts for her birthday...

haiz, i cant possibly tell her the truth ..

i think i would tell her on her birthday ..

at least i would be relieve ..

haha.. ok ok ..

btw, life has been up and down for me lately ..

no comments on that at all ..

anyway, i seriously dont know what is going on in this so called blog world ..

why are there so many spammers around??

i seriously hope this spammers isnt that particular one ..

anyway, who cares..

like yat said, he wont dare to do anything ..

anyway it was fun smsing and talking to yat ..

so long, kinda miss that dude ... haha ..

oh ya, prison break is so damn cool !

by the way, did anyone watch the arena yesterday ?

i'm only interested in the results show..

haha.. any idea who won ??

ok ok.. haha.. i gt no idea what else to blog already ...

haha.. all the best ppl in what ever u guys do !

2007-03-15T12:29:00.000+08:00

i'm sick man..

cant even sleep at night ..

haiz.. the fever is not even going down ..

tiring man ..

my house has become a mini hospital ..

haha.. poor mummy ..

she has to go fm room to room to check on me, and my two brothers and my dad ..

haha.. all of us fall sick at the same time ..

haha.. anyway its the season ..

haiz ..

its so boring man ..

haiz... i so wanna watch mr bean holiday ..

i totally cnt wait for 22 march ...

okok.. gtg .. want to sleep ..

2007-03-03T20:03:00.000+08:00

juz when u think the whole world is lending their support to u ..

dnt even imagine on being on cloud nine ..

someone somewhere will juz snatched it away from u ..

and that is what happen ..

haiz ..

despite being close, we are behaving like strangers ..

why the hell are we going through all this ??

namesake only ...

despite having blood relation, how can u even think of stabbing in the back ..

if outsiders hurt and betrayed u, it wont be so painful ..

but if ur own people do that to u .. it wont be easy to trust anyone including urself already..

haiz ...

the world is like that .. if one walks on the right path, someone will become the barrier ..

and to pass that barrier... what they have to endure ..

anyway, today my aunt went back to london, nt sure when is she coming back again ..

but most likely together with my cousin end of this year ..

haha.. at the airport, every1 was happy and laughing around ..

but just as the time to go arrive, every1 eyes turn red and watery ..

can uds .. its like the 2 weeks past so fast just like 2 days ..

i just felt like i could stop the time ... but no ..

anyway its okie .. life is like that ..

haiz .. i sure do hope i know who to trust now ..

mum says that i'm not good at judging ppl's character ..

what to do.. they look the same to me ..

who could have thought that their heart is not as pure as how they behave ..

how can a person have so many different faces ??

haiz .. i shouldnt be a open book, that what my mum and granny say ...

whatever ..

gtg .. so long ..

2007-02-28T14:01:00.000+08:00

i really got to thank yiying and huda ..

this two can really be a good wake up call anyway...

haha.. early morning receive sms from them and i replied about an hour later ...

haha.. sorry ppl.. still in dream mode ...

anyway.. today a little bit boring ..

nothing to watch .. mum lock the cartoon channels so that my younger bro can study ..

so not fair ... when i have my exams, mum let him watch and now when he has his ca, i cnt watch..

that is not fair ..

i cant even complain .. how sad ..

anyway.. i so want to buy alot alot of things ...

yep starting from clothes to shoes and i wish pc games too bt that is so out of the list ..

haiz ...

anyway was watching documentaries ...

and the doc on the dragons are so nice and fascinating ..

dragons do really exsits .. wow ..

their colours and their body structures and also their family bond .. its so strong ..

unbelieveable ..

i dnt know what else to crap on .. got to go ...

2007-02-26T18:55:00.000+08:00

so much has happen during this weekend ..
haha ..
friday, went to kk hospital for my brother's check up ...
i thought that would be the last appointment, bt the doctor ask to come back again ..
haiz .. wateva ..
haha.. bt dnt mind me, the doc was ya kinda handsome.. haha ..
the first words i heard from his mouth for at least about 15 mins, was ok, ya, carry on ...
haha.. it was so funny.. awhile later then he started asking never ending questions...
we were inside the room for half an hour or more..
very tiring.. i couldnt even sit down .. haiz
how i so wish that we could juz go in and see the doc instead of waiting like the other patients..
its like we guys are so used to it ..
whenever we fall sick, we go to the clinic, mum is working at and we dont even have to register or pay cash or even wait in the queue..
the moment we step in, within 5 mins, we get to see the doc ..
haha.. bt at kk .. haiz i so hate it .. now i uds how the other patients in the clinic might feel ..
we actually took for granted whatever we had .. haiz .. now its a no no ...
and ya after seeing the doc and after getting another appointment fixed again, we got to wait for the taxi and the queue was so damn long..
in the end we book a cab cuz it was raining so heavily and i was dying to go home to watch my movie..
haha .. very bad ar ? but come on, i'm tired ...
hehe.. tat was friday .. as for saturday.. hmm.. nothing unusual happen i guess ...
staying at home and relaxing .... haha.. lazying around ..
as for sunday .. it was a blast ..
haha.. my uncle had a farewell party for my aunt who is going back to london soon (gonna miss her)
it was too cool at his house ..
enjoy is one thing.. food is another thing ..
ystd he prepare the menu on he own.. and it was really delicious... haha ..
its like months since we last met and he kept forcing me to eat ..
bt i so cant ..
haha.. after eating a few mouthful, my chest hurts but i couldnt bear to break his heart, so i got no choice but to finish it..
and then i couldnt take it.. the pain was so painful ..
i couldnt even lie down on the bed cuz the kids were playing around and its not nice..
so i went into my uncle's room and i rest there ..
haha.. inside the room, my little cousin was awake and playing on his own, laughing.. so cute .. little chubby baby..
hehe and with us, there is fatboy ... haha my uncle'c cat..
he named it fatboy ...
i was looking forward to see the other cat..
very furry and so angry looking face ..
bt very sad, it got lost in malaysia .. haiz ..
bt fatboy was no different ..
haha..
he is so cute and funny and very naughty too and full of tricks ..
haha..
aw!! the best moment ever with the cat and the baby ... so sweet ..
playing with them really made me a baby too..
haha..full of tricks..
haha.. ok .. anyway it was great ...
but i sure do have a problem ..
i dnt know if i should believe what i heard or what i saw ..
haiz.. so dont know what to do ...
and another prob..
haha..
rabbit wants me to follow her go out together with huda on sat bt i am nt sure..
morning go airport and then meet up with a old friend but after that ???
haiz.. i rather not plan anything until friday night ....
its better ..

2007-02-22T13:56:00.000+08:00

i guess i have to agree that my life is indeed complex ...

haha.. bt its fun ..

not only to have troubles but the fun of having and going through it ...

haha..

ok ok...

bt ya, like what u said, i better end it before someone really gets hurt ...

bt what to do, i tried my best ...

if that person doesnt stop, its not my fault ...

bt ya u told me not to talk rite ..

haiz.. sorry ... i didnt obey ur order ...

haha..

we still talk but i shorten the conversation .. day by day it gets shorter ..

it shld be a good sign i hope ...

i so feel bad doing it, bt then i got to move on rite ...

so i moved on ..

like someone said, life is not easy ..

we just have to scarifice some things even though it means hurting that very person ...

well, in another way, he is true ...

you cant stop someone from loving u ...

haiz .. its time for me to get back to my own world ...

another thing, i so am going to miss those days ...

haha.. sorry ..

bt there is a lot of things to tell you about him bt there is like no time ...

anyway, i spent half the day smsing someone ...

haha.. it was kinda cool and fun ...

there was like no end to it ..

life is great .. and soon sch shall start ..

back to the old days ...

2007-02-19T14:50:00.000+08:00

i will never ever forget what happen yesterday night btw 10 pm to almost 1am ..

its one thing for sure ...

i dont even know how i manage to agree to do that ..

it is funny though bt i cant imagine how the hell i start the conversation ..

i was so afraid that i might get the cat out of the bag ..

bt it was cool, he didnt even realise it ...

haha .. sorry to say that ...

bt its always me who have to talk first ...

from where to where i had to think of a topic and talk about it ..

bt i do hope that everything is fine ...

whatever happen after i left should be good ...

and get this clear, this is the last time i'm ever going to do that again ..

its so malu ...

laughter is different, i wonder what would he be thinking ....

shucks ... whatever is it, it should happen for the best ...

2007-02-16T19:05:00.000+08:00

this week been a very busy and tiring week ...

i was supposed to go out on valentines day...

haha, gt it cancel last minute ...

gt to bring my brother to the hospital ...

anyway, going to the hospital is fun... i guess ...

bt going inside the hospital, is nt a good idea and not fun for sure...

we went to the A&E side ...

whatever happen in the hospital, i dnt wish to experience it nor talk about it ..

bt before going home, i went to buy food since no one is going to cook ..

on the way there, i stumble upon all the gifts shop and maternity stuff ...

haha, and ya baby toys too !

i walk pass by this shop and barney caught my eye ...

haha... then mummy and aunt had to buy the food, i disappear to the shop and was looking at the toys and barney too ..

the items there are so expensive but it was nice and appealing ...

wow ... the next visit i go, i'm dead sure that i'm going to buy it ... haha ...

bt must see ...

anyway, yesterday and today very tiring ...

shucks man, i dont know why am i so stubborn !

i know i had muslce tear last few days and i know that i shouldnt go jogging and walk that much but i never fail to listen until i fall into trouble myself ...

despite knowing tat, i still went for a walk, went out with friends and today, om the way back, i couldnt walk already..

the moment i put my leg on the ground, it hurts so much ...

i had to call my mummy to fetch me ...

haiz .. still trouble her to massage for me and give me medicine ...

bt then wat to do .. now i want to go out also cannot ...

haiz ... troublesome man ! wish i had listen to her ...

and for sure, i'm not going to wear that shoe again ..

2007-02-13T18:59:00.000+08:00

i am so so so tired already ...

i dont think i have the energy nor strength to carry on ...

my bro has nt been feeling well lately and now he has to go hospital for check up ...

haiz... no comments on tat ready ...

but i'm way too tired already ...

i had to run fm clinic to home and back to the clinic again ...

its totally different then my jogging ...

exhausted bt cannot sleep cuz if i do, i cant sleep at night ...

and i dont want to take the medicine ... its drowsy ...

cant afford to sleep in the day ...

** i'm truly very sorry that i cannot make it at all tomorrow...
pls forgive me, but my bro needs me more then u need me tmwr ...
we shall pick other days to have some time out together ...
dont worry ya! i'm too stress and tired to think about anything else ...
sorry once again !

and ya...

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY TO ALL THOSE IN LOVE AND THOSE WHO ARE SINGLE ALSO ... HAHA !!

2007-02-11T13:00:00.000+08:00

i so wanna cry ready !!!!

urgh !!! today its the last day and season of PCK ....

not fair !!! i dont want it to end !!!

its so funny and nice and cool and i dont know what else to say but its a nice entertainment form...

so how can it end...

it shouldnt end ...

seriously not fair !

haiz...

what to do ...

another prob... i dont know what i want...

yeah, tmwr back to my usual routine again in the morning, with no worries ya ...

anyway, i dont know what else to say ready.. haha... blank ready...

aw!!! bt i juz miss pck ... the thought of not watching it again... haiz...

bt csi new season is coming back on 21 feb...

so gt things to watch ...

bt once sch start, i dont know...

it kinda scares me now...

new environment, different way of teaching, friends, journery, times and etc...

wow... haiz ...

lets pray mum changes her mind and let me in the course i want... ya...

2007-02-10T21:17:00.000+08:00

wow.. i truly dont know what to say ...

but i seriously pity my friend about whatsoever has happen to him today...

haiz ...

its so sad man..

his girlfriend juz dump him today, this afternoon..

really sad, he bought her a $70 bouquet with a teddy on it for valentines day...

its really sad, juz a few days before valentines day and she did that to him..

reason is that she cant concentrate both on having a relationship and studies...

i can understand her situation and my friend too ...

he must be hurt and shocked...

after seeing her message, he rushed back all the way home from jb ...

and i seriously dont know how to make him understand ...

haiz.. poor guy... couldnt like she wait for a few more days or so...

bt then again, i guess its for the best...

haiz... i wonder what is he going to do ....

this is what happen when u love someone too much...

i guess bt not all love stories are the same... i can say that for sure...

2007-02-10T09:39:00.000+08:00

for the first time in my life ever again, i'm feeling both sad and happy ...

happy for doing well ..

sad for alot of things ...

...........................................................................................................................

there is this girl, who always takes things for granted in life...

she loves to joke around, play, have fun..

never once did she bother to think about her future...

she was very naughty and playful in her primary school life..

suddenly darkness has spread into her cheerful life in the most crucial parts of her life..

it was p6 tat year, everyone will be sitting for psle tat year...

and to her, like always was a normal year...

she didnt know whats going to happen to her after..

neither did she ever bother to find out...

her mum will always scold her, beat her to make sure she understands and study...

but she never...

and the day the results were released, it was that day her life started to turn upside down...

she went into the n(a) stream...

she went to this school tat she was posted too...

it was far from her place...

its like a new land for her...

during tat period, her mum scolded her, beat her for not studying well enough...

she cried alot ...

cuz the friends she was with, all left her...

she help them with their school work, neglecting hers...

they went to the school of their choice but she did not ...

not only tat...

she didnt know how her cousins will react ...

after knowing that her brother went to na also, and she also went to na stream...

she didnt realise at first, bt she did later...

her cousins all look down on her for going that stream...

so what if all her cousins went to the express stream and she didnt...

they look down and hurt her feelings...

during her first year in secondary , her life was tough, but how she manage to pull through, only she knows that...

faithfully every saturday she went to her paternal grandmother house...

bt sooner she stop going there after sometimes because of the treatment she received from her cousins...

then she never go there at all until there is some function ..

then suddenly one day, some light came back to her life...

when she was in sec 2, she didnt know what life had in store for her then bt whatever it was, it happen for the good and unknowingly ...

when she realised that she was promoted to the express stream..

she didnt know whether to be happy or not...

it was like losing her friends and at the same time gaining a chance to study well and better..

she left the choice to her parents and they put her in the express stream...

during those 2 year, she was so happy with her new friends and studies and school life...

bt she didnt forget her life in na and her friends...

one thing was for sure, when her cousins realise tat she made it through to express, they were pretty shocked and surprise... cuz they thought that she can never make it until she proved it to them...

and she did bt yeah, she still didnt talk to them....

never at all.. she still has her pride and she doesnt want to be hurt again ever... esp by her own loved ones...

when it comes to hari raya gathering, she was hurt the most...

once, twice, she kept quiet bt now she cant do it at all ready...

if her cousins has some problems with her, that is her and their problems..

but if adult interferes.. it hurts like one shit...

tat she really couldnt take it and she fall out with her dad most of the times...

she was really one stubborn girl...

then why suddenly when the o levels resutls are out, why one by one call up to ask ?

what happen to tat 5 years of grudge ??

forget it so fast just to know about the results and then remember it again after knowing about it...

what happen when she was so sick during her sec 3 years that she might have to be admitted to the hosipital because her cough was getting bad to worst...

where were they when her mother needed an adult for accompany ??

where were they when she was suffering so much ??

did they call?? did they bother to find out whether she was still alive or dead??

NO! no one bother to do tat... guess they will be glad to hear that she would be dead...

only her maternal grandmother and aunts called and find out...

day by day her maternal granny was worried and so was her mum..

they esp her mum thought that she was suffering from some illnes that has to do with her lung..

her worries started to began when the doc suggested of having a chest x-ray...

bt her mum didnt want, so the doc, a family doctor increase the doseage and thank god, she recovered well...

so where were her paternal sides when she needed or dnt need them ??

where were their concern then ??

and why now the sudden so call concern???

juz to see whether they manage to beat her in the results ???

its all a piece of shit...

whatever she was up till today was all her own achievements and ya thanks to the cruel treatment that gave her the motivaiton...

now, she is in such a road, in such a situation in which she dont know which way to turn..

she has her choices but she now leaves it up to fate and god...

to her, her life seems to be limited of choices but she knows she wont give up...

she has never gave up before so she will never...

why i know so much about this girl ??

cuz this girl and the story i wrote above is me...

that is my dark side and my life story...

the story, the events and the memories i will never forget in those years of my life in which i should enjoy and not suffer in slience ....

but what to do, like always, i cant be strong even though i want to be....

thats my life alright...

bt i believe everything happens for a reason...

so there must be something behind all this....

*coffin
about the overseas, i leave it up to fate...
if not now, i will go later..but right now, my mum and bro needs me...
whatsoevers happen, it will happen for good..
no worries ya...
i have sort of learn alot of things in personal life and now also ...
so i know how to handle my life.. i guess so...
take care ya !

2007-02-07T14:16:00.000+08:00

if there is one thing i can ever change in my life now is, my life on the computer ..

haiz, ever since i got hook on the computer, trouble has start to brew in ...

what i had expected and how it has turn out too ...

forgive me guys ...

but how can u ever fall in love with someone whom u have never met before ??

haiz i dont know ...

i set out to make friends with people overseas and locally but then what do i get in return??

trouble, tension, stupid request, sudden love, and all sorts of things...

there are a few whom u can really depend on and trust on ...

but few are only few ..

like 1 % only ... or maybe less then tat ..

haiz... some asked me to stick locally ... while others asked me to stop going there ready ....

but why??

one thing is for sure that i will never forget those moments spent together...

i kinda miss a lot of people nowdays...

haha, i juz dnt know, whenever i talk to any guy on the chat, i'm reminded of someone whom i used to talk to alot ... but i dnt know why the sudden change as in why we are not keeping in touch... i guess he is busy and so am i ...

anyway results are coming out this friday ... lets say our prayers....

no mood to write ready... there's like so much things on mind and i dnt know where to start...

and ya valentines day is juz next week... haha, not suprised at all .. but ......................................

oh yiying, dnt scold me... but i seriously hope to see Mr Teddy soon...

hey when i mean mr teddy, is not Mr Bean's teddy okie... anyway u know who i mean right ??

i hope to get that teddy... ah ............................................. no fair !

2007-02-04T10:53:00.000+08:00

its amazing not to use the computer and doing nothing the whole day...

anyway i brought it upon myself, so why should i complain now...

i cant use comp for more than half an hour for now before i get back to my usual times ..

its okie, what to do, i got warning already ...

restrict now or no computer forever ... FOREVER ??? can die ....

so juz here to blog awhile ... maybe not a while...

i have been spending my day looking outside and going out ...

no tv for long hours and ya worst, i cant use my phone also...

haha, juz for some time...

ok ok.. i cant go on, my eyes are starting to hurt...

so cya .. i seriously wanna cry, no 3d chat for sometime also... sad case...

2007-01-30T12:12:00.000+08:00

i'm very confused la ..

how and when and why it happen .. i dnt know man..

arr !! its so easy for me to give others advice on what to do and bla bla ..

but i cant use any on myself la...

got one blasting headache which doesnt seems to stop...

sleep also cannot ...

i guess u are right, i do think too much la..

seriously i need a break, break from computer, tv and the world ... yeah ..

one say, dnt know what to do for me..

the other says, juz to ignore it ..

well its easier said then done la ..

wow.. then it that case, every problem i face in my life now and later , the best solution is to avoid, ignore and run away from it la..

wah.. then i can expect a happy life with no worries la ..

bullshit man ...

they say, every new problem brings out the new person ..

i doubt so la..

being entangled in such things is not easy to get out la ...

breaking down and crying.. its a no no for me...

i need to find some solution... and what ? i dont know man !

nevermind, i'm firm with my decision, let's see what happens ...

anyway, since i'm cool in breaking ppl's heart (even though i'm not) lets break another heart for the right purpose this time...

i dnt care about what others think, but i hope i did made the right choice..

really crap man ! hurts like shit la ...

i wish u to be my friend again.. tats all.. pls ..

2007-01-29T19:29:00.000+08:00

its funny to say...

but when friends have problems, who do they turn too most, their friends..

its very strange ...

i was chatting with a couple of people overseas..

mostly in canada, usa, australia and ya singapore too ...

its fun talking to these group of people ...

the thing with them is they esp the guys knows how and when to capture someone's heart...

i did learn a lot from them, their culture and lots also ...

and ya they impress me alot on their country and environment..

which made me fall in love talking to this florida guy...

its unbelievable but i seriously respect him alot ...

anyway met a few other few good souls ...

i guess the idea of going overseas is so fun and its like i cant wait to get my feet on the plane and go to those places ...

this is for my special someone:
pls dnt be so tense about wateva has already happen..
its no use crying over spilt milk...
dnt and pls dnt vent or drown ur sorrow on food...
heed my advice, drink water... its better ...
u really want to know why u are not feeling the way u always wanted too ???
its cause, even though u succeeded , thats what u dont really want, i mean,
your heart refuses to give u that happiness u wanted ....
u get it ??
dnt bother if that freak says like tat ..
let him do whatever he wants, u have to move on..
moving on will do both of u guys good and some peace...
but let me remind u, u will feel abit weird, like a sense of loss and the sense of missing his presence
but it will be awhile only..
certain things have a way to end, u cant control how it ends but u will cry over it...
so chill out my dear, and take care !

2007-01-28T19:07:00.000+08:00

again, i brought my bro to the doc ..

haiz, i really wonder what is wrong with him ..

doc says if the stomach pain persists again, he has to go hospital for check up ..

whatever dude, i juz hope everything is ok ..

but today, first time i see this doc, arab looking, kinda cool and sweet ... yeah ..

wish could talk longer, but he was busy, very the busy but at least he took some time off ...

haha, ok ok.. then i went to buy food for my bro..

so on the way, i ask him to decide, if he wants to take bus or taxi..

the dude asked to take bus, mum say take taxi back, its faster and better..

ok.. so who should i listen to first?? of course mum la ...

took taxi ..

inside the cab, i told the driver to turn second traffic light on the right, but by right, i am suppose to tell him to turn to the left...

haha, and the driver said .. "huh? turn right? want to bang at the tree ar?

haha, i was like .. shit, i'm sorry its on the left, i mean turn left ...

so blur la.. cuz while waiting for my bro to get check, i fell asleep in the clinic..

mum was asking me, can i bring him home or not..

ya ya .. i said ...

and thx god i did brought him back home in one piece ...

thx god, that the driver is familiar with this area..

i cant believe it, crashing to the tree.. haha.. funny man...

next time i should keep myself awake...

its my fault anyway, sleeping late last night..

was up watching dvds til late morning...

well, tats what people say, all's well that ends well ..

2007-01-26T16:38:00.000+08:00

i wish i didnt read the newspaper today .... .... .... ....

haiz... so sad man ... yesterday, i was like smsing my pal saying that, hey come on lets go to the crocs farm at jurong tis sat or something ...

but never did i know that it was close down and they are going to sell it ..

i didnt know why i suddenly have the urge of going there yesterday...

but now i know la.. but its like too late, they close it and put it up for sale...

argh... mummy i wanna cry ...

its been long since i went there, and now when i want to go, its no more ..........

its not fair !!! extremely NOT FAIR !!!!!

but i wonder how... as in how can they shut it down??

and the crocs??? they are still living there, infested with mosquitoes ...

soon enough they will go to indonesia...

but its sad la... dnt know why...

i wish they could do something.. so i sort off send something to them ...

anyway, life seems okie today except for the newspaper ....

yesterday night, my bro was sick, brought him to the clinic and mum was like imagining the worst... after all, he is the apple of her eye...

i didnt know how we managed to go but like they said, all's well that ends well..

he was fine but got some problem with his digestion ...

and my mum, she was really kiasu... yeah, i admit , she works in the clinic and she sees all sorts of things everyday...

and she was like imagining the worst ... cuz my bro was complaining of stomach pain and vomiting and sweating ... and my mum look up the book with his symtoms in mind and she thought it was appendix ...

wow... she was scared alright ... and its like i dont know what to do so i told my mum stop imagining the worst, go ask doc and see what he says before jumping..

so she ask along my neighbour so she can have an adult company but then my neighbour wasnt at home so her daughter followed along...

thank god, i should say ... it didnt turn out what she thought it was ... the doc said something else and she was kinda relieve ...

but my poor bro, cant take any dairy products for some time..

if it was me, i would be jumping up and down the sky...

haha... i mean, i hate milk... and if the doc said that to me, i would be so damn happy ... haha ...

thats me alright.. not my bro.. he is suffering alright ... and forgive me, he kinda deserves it cuz who asked him to follow my footsteps to skip meals .. hehe ...

ok ok ... cant be mean ... as long as my bro is ok, i wont let any harm come to him alright and my mum wouldnt have to worry ...

oh yesh, prison break was so damn cool and i cant believe the season is coming to the end !!!! urgh!!! how ?????? its not fair !!!!!

2007-01-25T14:34:00.000+08:00

I AM SO SO SO SO SO SO ANGRY !!!!!!!

HOW CAN PEOPLE TAKE ADVANTAGE ON THOSE KIND HEARTED PEOPLE !!!

DONT THEY KNOW THAT IT IS HARD AND RARE TO FIND SUCH A KIND HEARTED PERSON WHO PUTS OTHER FIRST BEFORE HIM... WHO CARES ABOUT OTHERS FIRST BEFORE HIM ???

ITS SERIOUSLY STUPID AND I HATE IT TO THE CORE MAN!!

what was his fault man ?? juz because the girl was his best friend and her guy was like a brother to him??

i cant write further nor disclose any facts at all.. but it really hurts me a lot la...

how much can people go to such an extent...

how come it is so easy for people to take advantage on those who are innocent...

and those innocent people, juz take it to their stride and move on..

but no one knows the pain unlike i do ...

i guess my buddy must have suffered alot when he told me about it ..

its like life have become a struggle for them, and ya what can they do if their trust is broken ??

to get back on track, really is a struggle..

i guess what they need is to have comfort, believe in themselves and move on...

their close one would be able to help them or those whom they believe ...

its sure damn easy for me to say but frankly speaking, if such situation does happen or even happen, i doubt i can do those things that i tell them to do so even though i know how to do it...

hmm... what can i even say or talk about it ..

i guess i'm lucky to have meet him ..

after all, everything happens for a reason ...

and my reason of meeting him, most likely to share our personal life together ..

to share our sorrow and ya happiness too ...

its nice .. totally nice and over expressive... as in like , i cant express how great it is ...

today was sure good i guess.. nice weather too ...

i suddenly have the urge to go to the croc farm..

was watching their documentary and its so fascinating and unbelievable...

haha, sweet and beautiful little crocs and big ones too..

wow!! i seriously miss them... haha..

i guess i end it here ... hehe ..

2007-01-24T13:09:00.000+08:00

i'm kinda bored so here i am again to blog..

thx to yiying's sms, i finally woke up this morning..

very the late untill i miss my tv programmes and ya also forget to send my brother to school...

haha, thx god, mum did that job for me and ya lucky she nvr scold me ...

but i got a feeling my brother is going to be very angry with me ...

haha.. but no worries, i know how to calm his anger...

i'm like counting down the days to the results ...

its like a torture..

how many days left of freedom before going back to study again...

the thought of going back to study, really trills me alot...

but then again, a new environment, new courses, can't seem to wait for my hands to get on...

but before i go back, i kinda feel like going to lots of places.. for a last minute fun...

but too bad, no company so got to make do alone or with my brothers or cousins...

this friday meeting garfield.. oh yeah, cant wait to meet her...

there is like thousands of things for me to tell her, and i doubt one day would be enough for all of it...

and that includes what she wants to say also...

haiz, i juz hope that day wont be gone so fast...

okie .. its time to log off and tune in to tv i suggest but i got to go and buy some sweets and snacks and stuff first ( a way to calm my bro down.. haha)

2007-01-23T18:30:00.000+08:00

i seriously dnt know what am i doing or thinking nowadays...

haiz.. love really really really suck and hurt and pain ...

i dnt know what i am thinking, what nonsense i am talking ...

its like a total alien kind of feeling...

sometimes i think of it and sometimes i dont...

the thing is, some say that i am falling in love whereas i myself dont know..

is losing a person's company means that u are falling in love?

is missing a person's presence, means that u are falling in love?

is thinking about that person means that u are falling in love?

i mean what the hell is wrong, if i miss someone ?? it doesnt mean that i like or love him ??

why is it so easy to let a stranger know how u feel and not your loved ones??

why is it so easy to find someone and talk to them, for hours and hours and never let them go?

why is it so hard to say goodbye to a person whom u dont really want to go ??

i mean what the hell is wrong with me??

i'm sure i wasnt like this before..

being expose to the world outside, brought me to this stand, this weird sort of thinking i think..

i feel like banging my head on the wall...

i hardly use to care about anything..

its like i take it as it comes and goes..

but now, every step taken, muz be taken seriously...

problems problems and problems...

which jerk doesnt have problems??

i'm seriously dead confused...

this new york dude i met online... its kinda cool, and its like we both have the same type of thinking..

we click off well and know each other for a week but our earlier conversation lasted about 3 hours ...

and it felt like we meet earlier before.. way before...

it seems like he knows who i am... and there was like a kind of connection ...

i dnt know how to express... but its so great and fun to talk with him, that i was kinda reluctant not to say bye...

i mean what am i suppose to do ??

once u start to like a person's presence, its hard to let it go..

to think on a positive side, its all part of growing up...

frankly speaking, i'm running away fm this..

when it comes to this matter, its like i follow my mind, not my heart...

i hate having relations, for one reason is that i have to live in the dark, a secret life.. which i seriously cant do it... i love to be open minded ... and the other reason is that it is juz not the time for me now...

is not wrong to stop a person fm liking u isit???

its not even feb 14, and its spreading like a virus..

u dont know where and when it will strike...

i think, me staying at home and going out has seriously made me go bonkers..

too much of the world outside, is really scary..

i dont mind being loved, i mean its nice to have someone love u rite.. its a great feeling.. but to love someone???

haha..

tat really hurts ...

cuz that depends if u really can trust a person or not....

trust, is a very hard thing to do, it takes a day to break a person's trust and it takes a lifetime to gain back...

simple word like love has seriously created lots of troubles and problems in people's life...

yep its true for sure... i wonder how many went through and survive...

for me, love is like fighting for survival...

yeah, survival, the driven force in life... haha..

tension is on the rise and there is no medication for this disease...

results going to be out soon... friends problems ... life problems ... some more what else ???

its really nuts.. today's entry muz be in fact super long and ya full of i dont know what i am thinking...

rather confused ... but i hope i can clear my mind soon enough and get back to my normal routine...

freaky man ... in love ?? shucks .............................................

2007-01-22T16:38:00.000+08:00

i'm getting a hang on how people in australia speaks and address to each other ..

haha, kinda cool.. thanks to my buddy whom we juz met ...

great.. i'm hoping to meet someone in france .. but it seems no luck ..

anyway, results are going to be out soon...

and the atmosphere is going to be VERY TENSE...

last friday, went to tp and ngee ann poly open house..

its nice and fun.. journery to ngee ann, took some time and i totally cant stand it coming back home by mrt..

i wish i had taken a taxi or maybe ask someone to fetch me...

the mrt was so damn crowded .. worst trip ever ...

reach home about 7 pm... dead tired...

then sunday, rabiatul called .. had a chat with her ... its damn long... but very nice ... we talk about lots of stuff and ya future too ...

speaking of future, i'm really excited and scared and nervous...

haha.. i better end it here .. there's nothing to talk on .. kinda boring ... go surfing ...

2007-01-18T15:02:00.000+08:00

back after some nice days of so not peaceful rest...

haha... anyway, staying sick at home for the past few days can be boring and fun too..

the boring thing is that if go out, very uncomfortable and get tired very easily ..

the fun part is that u can stay at home and watch tv and order anyone to get things done for u.. hehe ...

but it was kinda boring also... so i got hook up on the computer..

this past few days was fun... despite staying at home, i could talk to so many people around the world.. its was great meeting them..

i met kinda few nice people.. very fun and chatty to talk with ...

haha... there was this Aussie guy.. same age ... very funny talking to him..
we both click off well during the start and he owns a car ready! not fair...

but what can i do ... we exchange quite a couple of stuff and it was totally great..
he loves basketball and either wants to be a doctor or basketball player ..

then there was another guy, staying in brooklyn.. haha.. okie this guy, same age also... kinda sweet talker and funny ... he doesnt know that singapore exsits .. can u believe that... its so sad ... haha.. talking to this guy was a total different experience... it was winter there and he was complaining about how cold it was.. and i was complaining about the hot and wet weather here... then we nearly ended up arguing about the snow.. it was so funny .. but all wells that ends wells ... hehe ..

okie .. then there was the Aussie gurl, very very dont know what to say but cool talking too... then the canada guy and more ...

most people i hook up talking to were guys... totally sad... gurls are there but they are all above my age.. so its not easy ...

but today, i was talking to this guy, singaporean too and age 32 ...

its kinda weird la ..

he is married less then a year and then gets a divorce cuz there was another guy with his wife... sad indeed la... but he like kinda take it cool man ...

then he was getting up the sleeve and asking me, i shall say stupid questions la.. and the funniest part was that i answer and answer and answer ...

well all my answers are kinda ..... dnt know what to say ... hehe ... he gave his email id also, but i doubt i'm gonna add him... no way.. its weird and scary..

the thing is that, its fun meeting with people around the world, without flying but what u need is luck to bump into a good angel and talk .. and my luck was great cuz i met the funny aussie guy and the sweet talker brooklyn guy... haha..

2007-01-13T19:20:00.000+08:00

i'm not feeling well today at all ... down with flu and getting fever ...

body temp is rising ... reluctant to take medicine ..

haiz .. shucks man ... the weather also not in my favour ...

raining for the past few days ... got wet in the rain ...

how not to get sick ??

so now suffering ...

anyway, went out with garfield and huda ...

garfield wanted to buy shoes ... haha.. didnt know choosing shoes can be fun and ya a bit troublesome ...

then we head to macdonalds ...

here garfield was doing her GP essay of homework.. wateva it is ... but the topic is damn interesting .. something about asian values dissapearing in the next century ..

haha, me and huda gave ideas, but it seems like she doesnt agree on the divorce and ya talking about wat, sons or i shall say, guys are given more value or power the girls .. some thing like tat ..

but it was fun... den garfield and huda are exchanging about the experience in jc and how life is like in there ... haha.. seems like they enjoyed alot which is great... cuz earlier, they were very worried about adjusting in the school but now seems okie ... so its cool..

after so long, meet up with them.. fun but i miss yiying... haiz ...
wish she was there...but its ok, she has her own probs too ...

oh ya, i saw weizhen in the macs too ... haha...

okok, i got to stop her... wanna go slp ready, too tired to talk ...

need to rest also ... haha ...

2007-01-08T17:01:00.000+08:00

its boring so i decided to do some quiz ...

1. You hung out wit?
# friends.

2. Rode in a car with?
# parents

3. Got high with?
# no one

4. Took a picture with?
# friends, cousin, animals and wats more ?

5. You talked on the phone to?
# coffin

6. Made you laugh?
# friends and brothers and everyone else too

7.Last person you told and/or they told you they Loved you?
# well.. it wld be my mummy..

W O U L D . Y O U . R A T H E R?

1. Pierce your nose or tongue?
# none

2. Be serious or be funny?
# serious

3. Die in a fire or die by getting shot?
# shot

4. Spend time with your parents or enemies?
# parents but if possible enemies too so I know what they are planning … haha ..

A N S W E R. T R U T H F U L L Y.

1. Do you like anyone?
# if I say yes, ppl will ask who, If I say no, then I’m lying .. so I’m quiet on this question …

2. Sun or moon?
# moon

3. Winter or Fall?
# winter

4. left or right?
# no idea

5. 10 acquaintances or two bestfriends?
# two bestfriends

6. Sunny or rainy?
# both

7. Vanilla ice cream or chocolate icecream?
# none

A B O U T . Y O U.

1. What time is it?
# 4.33 pm

2. First Name?
# no first name… only shakeilah

3. Where do you wanna live?
# in the jungle .. haha … nah somewhere peaceful and sea facing view would be nice

4. How many kids do you want?
* no idea

5. Do you want to get married?
# dnt ask .. I dnt know anything bout it ..

6. Current mood?
# happy I guess..

IN . THE. LAST. 48 HOURS. HAVE. YOU.

1. Sang?
nope

2. been hugged?
yep

3. Felt stupid?
cnt rmb

4. missed someone?
dnt know

5. Danced Crazy?
nah

6. Gotten your hair cut?
no

7. cried?
no

8. Lied:
for??

S T U F F .

1. Have you ever been searched FOR by the cops?
nope

2. When's the last time you've been sledding?
cnt rmb

3. Would you rather sleep with someone else, or alone?
alone, if it’s a ghost, I dnt mind ..

4. Do you consider yourself creative?
no idea

Here's another one.. Wees.

1. When is the last time you held hands with someone?
hmm.. cnt disclose … haha

2. You wake up as the opposite gender,what's the one thing you'd do?
c how life is like being opp sex

3. Have you ever crawled through a window?
haha.. yeah in my dreams

4. Where is your mum?
in the room

5. Morning or night person?
both

6. What was the last movie you watched?
Cnt rmb

7. Any cool scars?
no idea

8. Things about the opposite sex you notice first.
urm .. style .. character .. gentle like .. etc … dnt know.. any of them ..

9. What do you do when no one is watching?
nothing illegal

10. Ever been in love?
pls, dnt ever ask me this question .. I seriously dnt know ..

11. What's something your friends make fun of you for?
a lot

12. What is your curfew?
nope.. gt time limit la if go out, muz be back latest by 9 or 10

13. Would you ever dye your hair red?
no way.. natural is the best

14. You + alcohol= ?
6 foot under … alcohol and me ??? die for sure

15. What's your worst personality flaw?
how I know ?

16. What career would you wish to be in?
hmm… veterinary .. anything to do wif animals ..

17. Which country would you like to visit?
Australia and the Artics and maybe Africa

18. Do you want a well paying job or a job you enjoy?
I dnt care about the pay … the fun and enjoyment is what matters to me ..

19. Do you believe in needing a religion?
yeah

20. When were you last on the phone?
about 2 to 3 hrs with yiying .. gt some nice threats too … shucks man … but I know u wont do it!

21. What were the shoes you wore today?
heels

22. Do you like maths?
as long as it doesn’t drives me mad ..

23. What about history? yeah.. it may be boring but it has some nice interesting facts .. I prefer prehistoric life ..

24. Have you ever seen 5 squirrels atone time?
nope..

25. Can you touch your nose with your tongue?
nope

26. Do you have a sister?
nope

27. Did your great grandad fight inthe civil war?
no idea

28. Who's your favorite person to talk to online?
there is some1 a long time ago..

29. Have you ever used photobucket?
I dnt noe

30. Do you like hugs?
yep, nice warm one …

31. Do you want to be a doctor?
doc for humans ?? damn irritating .. but doc for animals, yesh yesh !! why not ! what greater joy can that be ????

32. Have you ever fallen asleep with gum in your mouth?
nope

33. What do you do right before you go to bed?
make sure my bear is wif me …

34. Right when you get out of bed?
check phone for time ..

35. Would you date a boy with hair longer than yours?
no .. a gentleman would do .. haha …

36. Do you want to be famous?
as longs as I am who i am and still have what I have now, I dnt mind but if my life has to change.. I rather not !

37. Do you spend a lot of time contemplating life's answer?
yesh .. always till I get a clue … or maybe answet but sometimes no … sad ..

38. Do you do your own laundry?
nope … mum does it .. actually everything la …

39. What words do you use instead of "good"?
perfect ..

40. Anyone on your mind at the moment?
The truth is yes … but who, wnt tell u .. haha !

2007-01-06T18:42:00.000+08:00

ITS BORING BORING AND BORING !!!!

URGH !!!! damn tired and boring ...

go out and come back ... like no life man ...

haiz ... what to do ...

but its worth, at least i have my cable tv with me... if dnt have that... die man!

i totally dont know how me and my two brothers managed to survive those 2 days watching dvds only and no cable tv ...

seriously man ... two days of episode and movies and cartoon missed ..

i can't blame the earthquake ... due to that, the cable got problem...

its no fun la ... no tv ... miserable !

but now, got tv also miserable ! they change the timing ...

since sch reopen, they change the timing !!!

how can they do that ???? not all going to school yet ... some still have holiday!!

since they change the timing ... its back to school like usual... but this time, i dnt wake up to get ready for school but get ready to watch tv...

haha... what to do ...

got tv also complain... no tv also complain ...

humans are good at complaining only ... haiz ....

but its still kinda scary trying to enjoy ...

i always feel that there is a sword hanging loose on my head and can drop anytime.... scary ...

haiz ...

enough of blogging...

shall play somes games ...

2007-01-01T18:50:00.000+08:00

2006

what a year ? a year full of memories, sweet.. sour...bitter... tasteless...

a time full of happiness, sorrow ans troubles ...

the stupid things we did can be worth laughing and crying at ...

the choice we choose, the friends we made, the environment we seek are all changing sooner or later ...

but there is one thing for sure, certain events that happened in 2006, will be unforgetable for me ... the tears my loved one shared, the concern my unlce had, the sorrow my granny had to suffer ... all this bitter events are hard to forget ...

anyway other events occur too and it is destiny ... which we can't change ...

a person dying, a baby coming to this world and etc ...

enough of that ... and i hate to say this but its better to let go off the past sometimes ..

so ...

its time to say goodbye to 2006 and welcome the new year 2007 !

may this year be a year full of hopes and laughter and happiness ...

may it be the year worth to remember and if god prevails, lets hope there is no disasters but hope is a hope only ...

HAPPY NEW YEAR !!

2006-12-30T21:11:00.000+08:00

hello .. so long never update ...

haha ... so much has happen in this year ...

taiwan earthquake, no internet connection, saddem hussian hang and flood and more and more ...

haiz .. i wonder what the world coming too now ..

anyway, did enjoy myself the last two days but not that much ...

a relative of dad's passed away ... so muz respect thats why not much enjoyment...

besides that, had a lot of fun on my birthday...

mum and dad bought me a necklace set and teddy bear ...

big brother bought me a beautiful casebox and small brother brother bought me a teddy too ...

friends gave a couple of stuff too but what i receive most this year are lots and lots of teddy bears ... haha, juz love it !!

besides tmwr is hari raya haji right, so more gifts ... haha ... will be lots of fun ...

and its new year eve too ... so can expect lots of fun but doubt if can go and see the fireworks ...

anyway sch is gonna open soon... yeah ... kinda cool ...

okie gt to go ... have fun and enjoy the last few days of holidays for those going back to sch ... haha ... take care !

2006-12-23T17:18:00.000+08:00

SHOPPING SPREE !!! YAY !!!

haha .. looks like the festive season is really a contagious disease ! i cant get out of the shopping mode !

went to shops after another and bought stuffs especially toys !

wow ! all the disney toys and bears and mugs and towels and key chains and more look so cool and irresistible not to buy ...

all those shopping was nice but very tiring .. my legs are aching ... body pain ... couldnt go out the next day ... stay at home and rest ... sad case... miss the fun!

but was worthwhile ! haha ... den today, i saw this winnie the pooh bear ... so cute and totally soft and nice to hug... what to do .. irresistible not to buy, so ask mum and she bought it to me as an advance birthday gift! haha...

pooh bear !! so cute !! wearing christmas hat too!! haha... ok ok ...

den off we went to watch the looney tunes show at whitesands!!!

haha!!! i love the dance !!! so good and cute ! tweety was dancing with tasmanian devil ... haha should see this duo ... very funny man!

and bugs ... haha .... bugs and daffy were fighting and it was so funny... was too good man !!! totally love it!!!

the final showdown for everthing is at 7 pm today.. dnt know if can go or not... its almost prayers time.. doubt so ... but its ok !

today was a fun and nice day ... too good ...

bought lots of chocolates and bought mac donalds too and ya also had Ben & Jerry ice cream .. very $$ but nice too eat ... bro wanted so juz buy ...

haiz ... so sad .. we came back home faster then we thought... haha ... but nice nice day .... i got my pooh bear with me !

next is barney, tigger and ya spongebob too ! haha .. ok ok... shall end here !

happy holidays everyone ! and MERRY CHRISTMAS TOO !

2006-12-14T12:11:00.000+08:00

nothing can be kept as a secret ... haha ...

tmwr, dad's birthday

next monday, aunty's birthday

next tuesday, cousin's birthday ..

dad's birthday, dnt know what to buy .. preparations done i tink.. bro is handling it ...

aunty birthday, same case ...

cousin's birthday, haha this one is great ... after all we all know what to buy for kids and what they really want..

haha,but for adult's case, its too complicated ... haha .. yeah ...

but there is one thing for sure, adults do turn or behave like a kid on their big day ... haha ..

anyway, all this will be taken care i guess...

next week most likely not free til wednesday i tink ...

another two more weeks, need to prepare for hari raya haji ...

havent started cleaning .. haha.. not my cup of tea ... lazy la ... hate cleaning especially my room.. it can only last or be clean for a day only and then all the things will be messed up ..

going to go raffles, somewhere next week ... haha .. yeah ... there is a store we are going to attack first ... yeah .. since christmas is drawing near, its time to buy some toys ... not for exhanging la but for keeping .. haha ...

tmwr go makan at swensen then go shopping, not me and my bros .. most likely make a trip to the library, mum and dad will be left alone for some hours only ... haha

plans for saturaday and sunday ...

saturday, camping at home, watching movies and dvds, will go out at night to granny house ( i tink )

sunday... actually no plans yet ... maybe play games on computer ... yeah ... shall make some arrangements..

oh yesh ... Dinotopia, the series on hallmark channel, is so so so so FUN to watch ...

its so cute seeing those dinosaurs .. imagine living in harmony with dinosaurs ... wow ! as if that could ever happen ... they have been dead for over 60 millions years ago ... i love the T-rex ... so cute... and grumpy .. haha ... last time, we used to have a collection of all the dinosaurs when we were young.. pester mum especially my bro to go and buy every single piece or type of dinosaur ... wonder where mum put it now .. somewhere in the store room ... never open for years already ...

and ya, trouble will start brewing in sooner ... families with small children are moving in already next to my house and later another renovation is going to start again ... dust and dirt and noise, will be unbearable ...

i suggest that we move out too ... its not fun if every of your close friends and neighbour left to some other place and newcomers whom i shall say, kinda proud people, not friendly will start moving ...

anyway, its better that we move out too ... then if dad buy a ground floor mansion, then it is confirm that we can keep cats ... and mum wouldnt have to worry at all ... yeah ... that will be cool ! haha ...

oh ya, haha, another two more weeks, school gonna open ready.. my poor bro got to go to school .. haha.. yeah ... ok ok .. being naughty.. haha.. what to do ... life is like tat ... love it !

2006-12-13T00:24:00.000+08:00

life is strange ...

let me give u a senario... (certain parts of the story below are not written, take a day to write from head to tail)

there was this girl, she went out with a group of friends to get some stuff for school ..

her trip was fun and happening ..things that shouldnt have happened, happened...

ok ok.. skip all those part ... but one day, someone from that group confessed something to her.. something that most likely will draw a distance between the both of them ... something that will change his and her life..

but she, she chose to ignore or keep the fact aside and be as what she was ... herself ...

that made it possible for her to talk to that wonderful person ... life was the same for her again ..

but at days goes by and months and thoughts and time and the events occuring in times, she decided to find some things out, or get answer to questions in her mind..

sometime later, that wonderful person asked her , how or what does she feel or have towards him.. she said, she doesnt know ... she doesnt know what she wants, what is important to her then ...

that might have turn that wonderful person down .. but that wonderful person didnt gave up until sometime later ... that wonderful person found someone who thinks suits him ...

she couldnt feel much happier, thinking that he has forgotten her and moved on... but she had that mix feelings and thoughts, which she could nvr understand then ...

then many many things happen ... busy with personal life, school work, exams and so on ...

finally everything came to an end, no more school, no more exams, not that busy in personal life ...

she sat down, thinking about the past... memories that are sweet yet unforgettable ...

she remember those sweet memories of going out with the group, she remember the other events that happen to her and Mr. wonderful and so on ...

den she ask herself this question ... what if i had said yes then ? what if i know what i wanted then ? why do i have this feelings ? why do i keep thinking about the things we did together ? why do i miss the calls? why do i miss the tease? all the questions ran in her mind like gunshots ...

she couldnt find an answer to any of her question, so she asked a friend ... telling from head to toe ..

her friend gave her one answer, LOVE ...

she was shocked as to why now this love feeling? why now? whats the point ?

her friend said that she and Mr.wonderful had feelings for each other but arent able to said it to each other .. thats why she feels that way, thats why she feels kinda insecure ... so her friend suggested that she and Mr.wonderful should have a talk ...

but she is scared .. again questions ... what if he change ? what if he doesnt feel the way she is feeling now? what if he is like other guys, toys or play around with girls feelings ? and what if and what if ?? it went on and on but no answer ...

stop at this point ... she couldnt find an answer nor could her friend give her one ...

life is indeed strange man ..

like that senario above, there was a time, when she dont know but then again,

the time comes to force her to think.. why ?

even i dont understand...

but when that Mr wonderful found someone and ya his feelings for that someone also died off cuz that someone happens to have someone else ...

how can we know that she is happy about it? who knows she was happy for awhile only ? who knows that she still have some feelings for him, but cant seem to express it ? who knows that she refuse to express it cuz of other things? who knows what she is going through then?

but why the sudden thinking about him? why the thoughts? why the feelings? nothing i can understand ..

this feelings, this love and bla bla, really confuse and complicates and pro long the matters ...

if time ever gives her the chance again, what will she do ? yes or no or dnt know?

2006-12-11T09:59:00.000+08:00

yeah .. juz woke up ... nice morning ... greeted by the chirpings of the birds and my mum's yelling ... haha ... forgot about it, that the aircon man coming for service ... hehe ...

between.. today is the first time in my life, i ever eat breakfast ... haha ... and its better, its english style ... with my favourite juice, orange juice ... nice man ... actually force to eat one la ... but nice ... too good ... but only for today, cuz cant change system ...

anyway, yesterday went to fairprice to stock up food supply in the cupboard ... haha ... was fun .. me and my younger brother ... went overboard ... we stock up for junk foods.. haha, chocolates was the main item...

but, gt to put some of them back.. if not mum will give lecture on having healthy food... haha..

ok that was yesterday and today's morning ... wat will happen next, later in the afternoon and so on, its still in the midst of planning... haha..

btw, saturday night, my uncle came down with his wife to give food.. i was watching and talking to him, and i cant help feel that he changed ... his attitude, behaviour, way of talking, all change ... and its for the better i guess ...

really man, when the programmes or movies says that once married, your life will change in many ways and its true ... my uncle, he is more of very responsible, he is hardly the uncle we used to know last time, before he was married .. carefree, no responsiblities, nothing at all, juz like us kids ... back in those days, but now... all change ... i dont know why, but cant help feel that some change for the better and some others, worst or remain the same ... sad or happy case.. haha ... dnt know ... not my prob for now ...

btw .. i wanna go watch a night in the muesum, go orchard see the lights , go zoo and still planning ... hehe

oh ya, wan, dnt get angry ok ?

2006-12-09T15:56:00.000+08:00

had lots of fun this whole week ...

went to vivo for some shopping and watch movie at the same time too ..

Dejavu, was a nice movie man.. its interesting and cool ...

next stop, wanted to watch open season but then again, dnt want cause dad getting the dvd so change plan.. but i want to watch night in the museum ... its nice !! but gt to wait for 21 dec i tink .. tats when it release ..

anyway, it was hell tiring at vivo .. spent walking for almost 3 hours and shopping .. stuff there are very $$$ .. didnt buy that much, cuz will burn a hole in the pocket ... but went to Toys'R'us... very big and ya, i love it ! i saw barney and winnie the pooh bears.. very big but didnt get the chance to buy them.. dnt ask ..

ok nvm ... manage to cover the whole of vivo.. not too fun i guess... i rather go to sentosa ... hehe... items are too $$ .. its the best place for all those rich people to go ... haiz ...

den .. went home, dead tired .. wanted to sleep but cannot, cuz too early reached home at about 8 plus.. got appointment with the the tv .. got cartoon to watch and axn movies too .. haha ..

most of my holidays spent are on tv and other work outside .. can u believe it, in order to buy a house, u need to be 35 yrs old ??? come on man ! tats is definitly not fair la ... to buy a car, there is already a age limit ... now a house too ... shucks man ... went to enquire about it and thats the answer i got ... very funny ... as if i am going to buy... totally not fair .. sad case man ...

haiz whatever ... den spent 3 hours on the phone yesterday nite smsing noorul ...

very weird and funny la the way people thinks ... haha .... can understand ...

morning woke up late almost afternoon ... then watch tv again and play games on the net ..

the usual routine starts again ...

planning to go out later but nowhere to go .. maybe go for a stroll at the park...

ok ok .. got to go.. shall end here for now ...

2006-11-29T17:00:00.000+08:00

feel like blogging so here i am ..

i feel bored staying at home but at the same time, its fun too...

haha... no worries about school work nor job ... nice .. but not too nice ... can get mad ...

anyway, there is a new addition to the family... my aunt juz gave birth to a baby boy ... wow ...

havent go and see the kiddo ... wonder how he looks ... haha... that time, want to go and see him, he had "yellow fever" and was hospitalized ... sad case .. so small ready, so fast he fall sick ..

was thinking of going shopping tmwr to get something for my cousin but got no idea in mind what would a baby like him want ... so i'm going to give something unique ( if i ever can find one)

yeah, ok so tmwr is book on shopping ...

haiz ... my uncle is sick and also havent go and see him ... how too also ???

all my planned schedule has been pushed back ...

wonder what am i gonna do for the next few days and weeks...

kinda lazy to go and work ... hehe ... i want to enjoy life but some say, u need money to enjoy also ... haiz ...

i dont care ... haha... i enjoy and about money .. u dont need money to go somewhere where u dont even need to use money rite ???

haha ... ok... my area here, under renovation ... hate it ... so much dust and dirt evey where .. the small of the paint and tinner can kill people ... sad case ...

only can go out and play with the cats at night to avoid all the smell and ya, cant escape the dirt ..

ok ok .. had a chat with yiying yesterday ... haiz a common thing btw her and wan, is that one day i have to learn something which i dont even want to nor bother to ... haiz sorry ppl, i may be a stubborn head, but pls dont bored me with it, cuz when the time comes, i know which two ppl to turn too ... i hope but got a feeling that before they help me, i'm gonna receive a lecture first.. wat to do, i'm all ears when the time comes ...

haiz, i'm missing the life we had earlier ... it was so fun and now, everyone is busy with their own things ... haiz ... nvm ...

okie, here's the entry for today and ya remember wan, give me discounts !

2006-11-20T19:35:00.000+08:00

finally 'O's are over ... what can i ever said about it ..

indeed the journey of my life has reached far enough, that i can pause and think about every step i took and every decision i made ..

every single event that happened, every single person that i met, every single knowledge gain and everyday's experience,made a impact on my life ...

the journey so far ... i never ever thought that one day, i would ever reflect on my past ...

haiz but what to do, the past also hold some beautiful yet painful memories too, so can't help it ..

anyway.. i have this weird feeling... happy that no school but sad also .. haha.. why sad ?? dont ask me, i dont even know ...

its like everything gonna change ready ... from a happy life in school to a totally different environment ... life is secondary school was like pre-school for me ..

haha, it was so fun, that i nvr realise that times flies very very fast ...

haiz, i still think its like the first year in sch, getting to know everybody and everyone and every subject ...

i mean, why must we feel like that only when we realise that something is over ready or finish ?? why dont we take note of it when we first experience it but we tend to like dont care about it ?? then why now this sort of weird feeling ???

urgh !! LIFE LIFE LIFE !! what to do ???

i wonder who else am i gonna meet when the journey of my life continues again .. am i gonna meet someone like me ? or someone who has different interest ? or am i gonna meet the same type of people i meet in secondary school again ??

the thought of it sure makes me scared but gives a little courage too, to experience the so call working world later ...

like a baby eagle, all grown up with the teachings of its parents and ready to leave the nest to venture out in the real world ...

wow .. let's see how this eagle continues its journey with every setbacks its going to meet and how it overcomes it ...